inspired by Graham Greene's novel The End of the Affair.
lyrics
I know some tricks, he's good at trade
Isn't it strange how pedantic what we call romantic?
I make him feel strong, he makes me feel seen
What do we owe to the ether? What are we but creatures?
He thinks I'm a fraud, suspects I'm a cheat
He wants me guilty: but he wants me!
And then you starts to haunt me.
I don't know how to love a man a little.
I don't know how to make my feelings small.
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
Because I don't know how to love a man a little.
I thought he was dead, under the door
And I believed in the Other; the Squandering Lover
I crouched on the floor, beside the bed
And for the first time, I trusted
It was the last day I lusted...
But he was alive: how I wished he were dead!
Then he'd be safe from my crushing,
dispirited touching.
I don't know how to love a man a little.
I don't know how to make my feelings small.
If I loved him once, that love remains a riddle
Because I don't know how to love a man a little.
I wanted them all, I wanted them each
Every man’s eye upon me - then you pressed in on me.
If you are love, if you are good, teach me to behave as I should,
Hang me to bleed on the dry wood.
What shall I say? What can I do?
All that I am is known by You
Grant him my peace, please, would You.
Bridge: I cannot love just a vapor.
You do not love only saints. x2
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it's such a beautiful album of grieving and loss and acceptance. it speaks to a particular kind of grief -- not a grieving of one who is lost, but the grieving for one who is still present and still causing pain. i love the last song most because while it could end in pain, or end with the narrators decision to permanently push this person out of their life and that would be justified, it doesn't. instead, it offers something. what is offered? acceptance. hope. and a chance for redemption janmisha
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The Oh Hellos sind was besonderes für mich. Ich mag die Wechsel zwischen den ruhigen, atmospherischen Passagen und den rhythmischen Passagen. Ich mag wie ihr Spannung aufbaut. Ich mag die Stimme von Maggie und Tyler. Ich mage den unisono Gesang der ganzen Band. Ich wünsche mir eine neue Produktion von The Oh Hellos und Surfjan Stevens; und eine Tour mit einem Konzert im Westen von Deutschland. Kert Goéland
A hushed and low-lit EP from this Melbourne musician, where dreamlike melodies drift across a bed of tender guitar. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 19, 2023
Recorded on the Grecian isle of Hydra, this is blissed-out psych pop with stacked falsetto harmonies and luscious arrangements. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 9, 2023